Greeting everyone! It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. I’ve done a lot of reflecting on life.
For so long I was wrapped in the same chapter of my life. That chapter was a really dark, upsetting time. Or so I thought. Of course when your in the darkness of life, you can’t see the light. You feel stuck, unbalanced, depressed, lost, etc.
But, there is light even in those dark times. It could be a new friend, animal, song, anything! The signs are there when your ready to see them.
For me, it was the awareness that I was tried. I was tired of being in the same chapter, expecting things to change, when in reality, I had to change. I had to believe that I deserve more than what was going on in life. This of course started an internal battle, but it was a battle I was welling to take on. That internal battle of why change things, you know things wont change. You know you’ll fail and be right back here. But I was tried of always listening to that voice and not truly following the signs that it was time. Time to change. That the chapter I was in needed to end.
So I started to look at the things, people, places, that drained my energy. It was a hard pill to swallow, but it was pill that I had avoided for way to long. It was this truth that got me to start seeing my worth and value. I started to be honest with myself on who, what, where was taking from my bucket and not giving to my bucket.( How full is your bucket? by Tom Rath) I started to look within and see what did I truly want my life to look like? Feel like? smell like? Taste like?
With asking myself this question it opened a door to what I was allowing to hold me back. What was making me play small and not shine my damn light. lol It opened me to parts of myself I had to relearn and trust. But also parts of me that I missed. It was so painful to have those parts of myself around while in this chapter. Now it was time to allow those parts of me rejoin and be apart of my next chapter. It was trusting in myself and the universe to guide me out of my current chapter and help co-create the new one.
I had to tell myself it was safe to leave a chapter behind that wasn’t my story anymore. It helped get me to where I am, but it had lived out its course. Now it was time to slowly and patiently see what the world is with fresh new eyes.
I will say, it’s like being a kid again. You see things in a different way, you learn to not judge everyone, or be so angry. You start to see that everyone is just trying to live out a chapter. And they may or may not be ready to leave that chapter. But having compassion for the fact that they are trying. You also learn that everyone…. EVERYONE has a story and wounds that need to be healed. And need someone or something to give them the chance and choice to leave their chapter and create a new one.
If you’re looking for a chance to leave a chapter or guidance to finally take that leap of faith… Here it is. I’m living proof that you can leave a chapter and create a new one. That life is not all that is displayed. That it’s time to take our power back and truly live life how you want it to be. Not how everyone wants it or thinks it should be.
If you’ve gotten this far, really take a step back in life and do I check in with yourself. Know that you have the answers within. You just have to listen. It’s ok to leave the chapter of chaos, the chapter of depression, the chapter or unhappiness, the chapter of lack, the chapter of oppression, and all the chapters that are based in fear. You have the pen and pad now. Write out what you want your life to look like. Do it with love in your heart and fire in your soul.
You will be ok and safe to take this leap. You’re stronger than you think!
I’m sending so much love, encouragement, empowerment, and strength to take your life into your own hands and know that you can have the life you’ve always wanted. Believe you deserve it! Believe you can work past the dark times. I know you can do it!